I'm having one of my depressive moments, probably comes from being a tiny bit ill.

I did write a stream of conciousness here first of all, but I don't like how emo my mind gets when its allowed to feed off of its own emotions. Better to just stick with a mask.

I'm used to those.


I guess the one I use the most is the "Fuck the world, I'll do what I like" one, works quite well I'm inclined to believe it myself quite often. Hell for all I know right now that's the real me and right now I'm just indulging that whiny part of myself I usually keep tied up and gagged in the back of my mind.

One thing is for sure though, regardless of what part of my mind I listen to its becoming quite clear that none of them like people. Individuals I can like, hell I think I even feel love and hate for some people, but as a group people turn my stomach. Humanity as a whole is made up of arrogant gits with all the charm, whit and brains of a maggot. I should know I'm a big enough arrogant git when it comes right down to it. Look at me now, I'm setting myself in judgement over the majority of humanity and stereotyping them - can you get more arrogant?

So what dose this mean? I don't like people, whoop de do! Guess what pall, lots of people don't like people as a whole. Yeh, and how many of them care about other people despite not liking them? Hum? Its not that I dislike them, I actually hate them. And hate is an attractive force, it draws you towards that which you hate. That's why I get angry at the stupidity, the will full stupidity, I see around me. There lives could be so much better if only they...

Hah! And now we come to the main problem: I know damn well I would probably be just as bad as anybody else at power. I could dictate to people how to run there lives and probably mess them up even worse than they are doing themselves. Just like every other person who gives into the voice saying: "Your better than them, make them better themselves". You can't make people better, they have to make themselves better. So the only person you can improve is yourself.


Well now, don't I go off on one when I'm tired, a little ill and depressed? If I ever get a psychologist they will have a field day with this drivel.

Wonder if anybody will read this shit? Meh, I guess I can see why people take drugs now.

Gits